Yeah, I hear ya. I’ve had similar feelings about this sim now and then–particularly after a CTD. I’ve only had one of those since SU7 knock on wood. On the other hand, I have had so many awe inspiring moments, particularly in external view, and so many white knuckle experiences when an instrument approach goes horribly wrong, that I just love this sim to death–most of the time. Like you, I await each update with concern and when something goes awry immediately after an update I get very frustrated, consider going back to X-Plane 11 or trying something else, but in the end I expect I’ll stay with this sim and tough it out. It really is amazing and mostly works beautifully. Twenty years ago I had no conception of how exciting and engrossing and realistic a flight sim could be.